Ughh

Oh hello stomach lining, how nice to see you again.

eurgh

I felt like i was going to be sick earlier, like i nearly puked up.
All because i thought i had lost harri.

Its crazy, we've been together for like 3 days but it feels right. i feel it could build into something more.

And when i thought that it was over before it had begun, it actually devastated me. right to the core.

Coming to the end of March

So this list dealio, number 11 is now ticked off!! I am now seeing someone and have an awesome girlfriend, who you can probably guess who it is.

So yes, this is the list at the moment


1. Join a gym
2. Move out into own place

4. Get a piercing
5. Get a tattoo designed
6. Get to the next level in my job
7. Save up £2,5oo
8. Go camping
9. Go abroad
10. Go to three gig's

12. Get a new car

Numbers 1,2,4,5,9 and 10 should all be ok to do this year. So looks like its going to be a good year. I might like revise the list in the summer, cos my aspirations may change and i might want different things, we'll see.

But yeah, so happy :) looking forward to my birthday next week, moving in to my new house on Sunday. Plus, dunno, if ive mentioned, but ive got this girlfriend who is completely lush (tru dat tru dat)

This is how i feel..

I'm just really happy :))))

Finally

You know when people say things like -

"My girlfriend is so freaking pretty"
"Check out how hot my girlfriend is"
"Yup, thats my girlfriend, jel?"

Well, now i get to say things like that.

Because, FINALLY, Harri has accepted she likes me and wants to be with me, and its now facebook official we are going out. Woop woop <3

Actually so happy. :D
Waited so long for this and i dont really know what to say, im just really happy :)))

:D

Harri

If you are not my girlfriend by end of this week i will slap you :)

Update on to do list........

1. Join a gym
2. Move out into own place

4. Get a piercing
5. Get a tattoo designed
6. Get to the next level in my job
7. Save up £2,5oo
8. Go camping
9. Go abroad
10. Go to three gig's
11. Start seeing someone
12. Get a new car


So im moving into yate in a couple weeks, pretty excitin. Lookin forward to being fully independant, but scary but its all about becoming an adult :) i was thinking today though im really gonna miss the beach in the summer. there isnt a good one around for ages, i really wanna visit home and just spend all my time out and about on the beacon, on the beach or at the hoe. god i miss the hoe, one of my favourite places. say what you want about plymouth, and i know im probably saying this cos im missing it, but its pretty lush.
Anyway, once ive moved to yate, il be joining the gym, gotta get my body looking lush for the summer dont i. and ive gone proper weedy cos i dont eat alot so i really need to get back into shape. get the abs and the pecs back ;) and once thats done i can get my piercing, unsure what i want now though.
The tattoo has a hit a bit of a roadblock, but i kinda know what i want, so its just actually getting it done.
going abroad is gonna be easy as im going to italy for a wedding, camping can be done, maybe i can go camping in the summer back in devon?
saving 2 and a half K, gettin a new car and getting to the next level in my job are things that arent gonna happen i dont think. but never say never.
ive been to see nero, it was fuckin epic, loved it. far too much jaeger though lol. ive got ed sheeran later this year so that just leaves one gig left :)
and with starting seeing someone, you cant really plan that. but im sure something will come along this year, i cant spend it all just single! maybe a summer romance will occur, you never know :P

over and out

ARGHGEHGJGER rage.

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basically. yeah.

URGHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH

kinda sums up how i felt

put my heart on the line, fucked over. again.

fml.

Life sucks. I like to think everything happens for a reason, but i was thinking that with a positive outlook on life.

Everything can be turned upside down though, and yet again, i let it.

I dunno why i do this, i should have learnt this by now, never open yourself up to ANYONE.

Chase & Status - Time ft. Delilah

Bloody Smarch Weather

It's March! The third chapter of my 2012 blog :) This is the first blog in a while as I've had a bit of a heavy time.

I'd just like to take this time to pay tribute to my wonderful Gran who sadly passed away this week. I can't believe you've gone, and I can't bare to think about it. It hasn't really sunk in yet and I will miss you incredibly. I love you Gran, and again, I can't believe you're gone. xxx

Again I've been ill this week, so for the first time in my life I took a couple days off work. It was compassionate leave as well I guess, but there was no way I was in a fit state to work. Saturday I went back and I nearly fainted right at the start of my shift, and I broke down on the walk in from the car park too but once I got my mind on the job I managed to pull together and get through the day nailing my target as per usual.

So at work, Ryan is leaving which means I am the last member of the original team! Literally, they should call me the original. But good news is that Rachel is joining our team who is an epic saleswoman so she will really help the team, bad news is that cos she can only work until 6 all my shifts have been swapped to lates. Not really a happy bunny but look on the bright side - LIE IN!

On Tuesday I will be looking at a house to share a room in. Its quite a popular one so hopefully it will be what Im looking for and the people are cool cos I have planned to move out on my birthday, which means another thing off my list! Then I would join a gym in Yate and get buff, I can focus on work and I'm also going to a wedding in the summer so thats me going abroad! I can easily go camping, get a piercing and a tattoo designed. I've got one guy starting a tattoo design but think hes lost interest. I've got two gigs booked, and hopefully, I will start seeing someone soon!

She says she doesnt want to rush into anything, and i dont either, but dont get me wrong, i really like this girl. I just wanna go with the flow and see what happens. I just wanna be exclusive only for eachother though. Who knows what will happen, life will twist and turn and you never know what is gonna slap in your face next!

Things arent looking too bad at the moment, lets see what happens in March, bring it on

Ive fallen for your eyes, but they dont know me yet.

You know that feeling where you never think that songs are gonna mean something to you again, like love songs or certain lyrics. I've had that for a while, but I just listened to some of Ed Sheerans album again, first time in ages, and some of the lyrics just struck a chord with me. The song 'Kiss Me' really made me feel something again and Im really surprised it did.

Also this one -

...I surrender up my heart, and swap it with yours..